rainpost yayyyy ^^
because i’m too lazy to post my latest reviews this month & the chinese review can wait.
anywhore, its finals week. i have been away from the internet for 5 WEEKS. well, except for AFF and Live Journal (on mobile during free periods).
i’ve been tutoring a freshman boy & i’m really dedicated to him. i don’t know why, i just really understand his frustration & how he gives up on himself and hides it with a little laugh, like “haha can’t believe i forgot that.” while he fixes his mistakes. but then i realized he’s me. he’s the boy version of me. we’re the same person. i’m basically tutoring myself. that’s why i’m not letting this kid slack off or just skip a problem he doesn’t understand. i’m so committed to get his grades up. just because i don’t want him to turn out like me. i’m indecisive ; i’m not even going to college. this fourteen year old needs to make something out of his life. & now it’s finals week, so i’m struggling with his study time, and mine. i don’t want to obsess over his grades because this is my senior year. i’ll only be here for him this year and then i’m leaving the country. i have to focus on my grades as well as his. asdfghjkl. i’m not a multi-tasker & this is only making me more stressed. i swear, if he fails any of his tests i’m just going to buy him some bubble tea and reassure him that there’s always next semester. oh god. i didn’t even know i was crying while writing this. thats weird. i never cry & this is so stupid.
zai jian c’: